Long Time No Post

The weather has been nice and all my plants are growing awesome. My herbs are growing exceptionally well :D yay!

I havent been doind a whole lot of anything. like today i slept until 11, then i layed on the couch for another hour or two then I got my lazy ass up and went tanning, then went to Panera Bread to have lunch. HAHAA! I am living like a spoiled brat and loving every second of it.

I havent been on here bc a lot of my blogroll consists of strippers/hookers and their stories....but lately i just dont wanna hear it. i dont care about stupid crap that goes on in a strip club. i am just so beyond done that it feels so goos and i am ready to start filling up my days and nights with other, more productive things. Stripping was not productive for me towards the end. It was very very destructive actually!! I am proud of myself for breaking freee hahaaa lol

xoxoxoxo

=)

Last night me and Brian hung out with some friends around a campfire.... :)

Something about late night fires really makes me feel so good about my life. It enlightens me ..... if that makes sense.... :)


Anyway....... I peeled off my fake nails. Gawd those things are hideous. My real nails are tender now but I have been nursing them with this protein shit. It just feels good to get the stripper off of me!

OH! And my legs (and other things :) are suppppper fuzzy right now because I am going to get waxed for the first time ever next week LOOOOLL What am I thinking?? I have no idea. I want smooth pretty skin and I am tired of shaving! B says it is going to hurt like HELL. I bet it willl but I will probably pop a Vicodin before going in there for sureeee!

Brian has been home for a while so thats always great! i LOVE when he is home for a few weeks...but then that means when he does go, he'll be gone a while...
BUT I am just going to enjoy having him here and not get to hung up on him leaving.

Today I took a nap in the hammock out back and I plan on doing the same tomorrow :)

new day dawning

I am starting to feel much, much better :) Thanks for asking.

It's another gorgeous day out here! I love the lake and the park and everything about this town. I am incredibly lucky to be living the life that I am. Everything about last week just confirmed that to me!

Today I may go get my car washed (it needs it REALLY bad), and stop at the Library.

Any suggestions on books I should check out? I usually just go throught them for a few hours and come home with a stack of books that look good :) But suggestions would be cool.

I have noticed that most of my other favorite bloggers have taken breaks from posting as well......maybe the nice weather has gotten everyone outside?

Tonight is Carne Guisada taco night :) Carne Guisada is incredibly EASY authentic taco beef filling make from stew meat and spices and its gonna be yummy! Homeade tortillas too!

xoxo

Endings

My boss freaked out on me again during the meeting. I mean REALLY?? Is it really THAT big of a deal that you feel the need to turn bright red and all your veins are bulging and you are spitting on me while you are fucking screaming at me??

Im sorry. I wont subject myself to verbal abuse and weirdness. Your club isnt even that great anymore. Your girls are busting their asses to make 200 dollars and all you care about is whether or not this IDIOT is comfortable and having a great time??? He insulted 2 of your best girls and you do nothing.

The best thing about Shotgun Willies is the amazing girls I met there.

I am going to be spending some time with my family and just AWAY from there.

Obviously I did not deserve the punishment....but in a way he gave me eexactly what I have been hoping for!!!

Craaaaap

I slept on it last night. I cried all night. Not because of what happened really but more because.......this shit happens ALL THE TIME in strip clubs, Why did he feel the need to freak out and let loose in the office on my and get SO mad like that. It was really uncalled for and unprofessional. And really really mean. People tell me i am overly sensitive and whatever maybe i am...but holy cow.

I texted him this morning "Am I suspended for the rest of the weekend?"

he wrote back "Nope you have a meeting with my before work tonight"


WHAT THE FUCK. Why?! So he can humiliate me again? Upset me again? Make me cry right before my Friday night shift??? Thanks. I appreciate it.

Why cant he just leave it alone. Why does he feel the need to play my Dad and lecture me over what I did wrong. I am not one of your kids I dont need to be scolded like a child.



I know that I have a bad attitude at times and I am sorry. It is something I have been in trouble for all my life. I was always the girl that talked back or had to have the last word. I feel this is because I wasn't heard in my household growing up....I was the middle child with the big heart that nobody paid attention too.....so in some way i get very uncomfortable and defensive naturally towards people...i tend to want to prove that how they treated me was wrong.

And he is right in a certain sense because I should be more professional as well when dealing with issues that come up in the club. But I feel I would have more incentive to act appropriately towards these cocksuckers if I knew management would deal with them the right way.

But they never do and never will. They just tell the customer: "I am sorry for what happened, I will deal with that girl, enjoy your drink...better yet here's a ticket for a FREE drink"

Bullshit.

But that's life I guess.

EAT SHIT

Soooooooooooooo Im just supposed to bite my tounge??

Whatever....you can bully me and degrade me and try to make me feel like I am in the wrong- BUT I KNOW I AM IN THE RIGHT. YOU, my friend, are in the wrong.

Who the fuck do you think you are anyway??

I am a strong woman. I was raised to stick up for myself and those I love. So when some COCKY asshole decides that he wants to take his pathetic life out on me and my friend while we are TRYING to fucking dance for him I am just supposed to ignore him and giggle and pretend I didn't hear how he said me and my friend are not worth TWO DOLLARS??

I'm sorry. Its just really hard for me to stand by and let that happen.

Also- I think its awesome how everytime I need you for something you are NOWHERE TO BE FOUND. NEVER. I tried to find you and let you know what that asshole said to us....but I couldnt find u anywhere- go figure.

So tomorrow I will come in to work early so we can have a little "meeting" in the office where you tell me AGAIN how I am in the wrong for fucking sticking up for myself. And I will bite my tounge ONLYYYYYYYYY because I need my job. NOT because I think you are right in ANY WAY.

But the truth is I fucking hate you. I despise you. Your a faggot fucking Republican. Get a life. Better yet- Go fuck your fat wife.





Sorry for all the CAPS. But obviously, I am pissed :)